musings, Rantings, and such

So i finally have this wonderfully great guy in my life, who i believe i am starting to love. He is everything i have been waiting for. The problem is, yes there is always a problem, his current almost ex wife is on the verge of starting problems for us. She is the one who wanted the divorce, she is the one who wanted out...so bitch fucking go already! I should have predicted this, as Matt and i were just talking about it at dinner the other night. It should not be this way, i shouldn't feel like i am sneaking around. we should be able to move on with our life together, not worry about what she is going to do next. Matt and i are going to make it, I am not going to let some little bitch change that. we are secure in us, she has no barring on us what so ever. I made a promise to him that i am here for him, i am not leaving i am here for the long haul. So i am not going to let some crazy baby momma run me off.

wow, heres the scoop

So i have been in ST. Joe since jan. still no job. So i am contemplating a huge move if i can find a job and a house! With the constant urging of my cousin! so we shall see...it would be nice to be in a place where it doesnt rain often, no winter and no allergies....hmmm

new life, new year, new me

this year I have decided to purge myself of all things negative in my life....people, places everything. if you make it to the new life the new round then you deserve the love I bestow. we are moving friday to st joseph, mo...we will be staying with my best friend angie for 2 weeks then I close on my house. a house I am buying without a man...im doing it all on my own. I will be looking for a job. probably go back to bartending just to get me in my house and paying bills. everyone have a great year. more when we are settled.